Because I am not sure what to write, I will put something up that I wrote a few weeks ago when I was drunk and exhausted...I guess this writing was a sort of goodbye.
I wish things were different
I wish I was pure
I wish you were different
I wish I was sure
I wish you were here
I wish I was there
I wish I could have seen what it would have been like
Look at me with those eyes
And tell me that none of this matters
That in minutes, hours, days, in months... None of this will be real
Memories are gold
Memories are of what is now old
Memories are the treasures of my heart
You are right there, a gleaming gold pendant
Here in my heart, which beats always fast
I wish I was new
I wish I could go back
I wish to move forward with everything that I have remembering everything that I tried to grasp.
Send me a message--all I want is a sign
To let me know that something was there despite all failed try's.
I will tell you a secret if you tell me something true
There's something about you that I can't shake loose
I wish I was there but not all the time
I guess these minutes, hours, and days
Are proving me right
